Last week was one of the hardest weeks of my entire life. I saw some of my closest friends be asked to leave. AOL made some sweeping changes and it affected the entire company in a very profound way.
This week has been a bumpy start, that's for sure. I don't know what to feel or how to act. I've written an article addressing what happened and it will be published on the site rather soon. I think on Wednesday to be more exact. Regardless, the future is very different from what it was a mere week ago.
There have been changes of titanic proportions over the last two years. The most notable being that being at Nullsoft has changed. It has definately transformed into a job. Am I happy about that? I don't know yet. It's been challenging but also quite concerning. I was speaking with Brennan about this the other night on the phone while we were trying to figure out where our priorities should lie. He told me that I have an amazing tolerance for stupidity. I agree.
Perhaps it is not that I'm tolerant of stupidity, but more so stupid my self. Maybe I'm just naive. I spend quite a bit of time devoted to our causes trying to spread word about our mission and why we are all here, and yet perhaps it falls on deaf ears. I don't know. I'll make my decision over the next year. I would like to see where we all are within a year, that's when the true outcome of our fates will be clear as crystal.
I'm going to go out and lay in the sun. I can only hope that that might cheer me up, or maybe not.